Danniella Westbrook admits fear and danger of relapsing 'in the blink of an eye' as she wakes up 'feeling emptiness'

DANNIELLA Westbrook has shared a candid post about her recovery from drug addiction on Instagram – and admitted she worries about relapsing.

The former EastEnders actress, who has been sober for some time, said she had woken with an "ache inside me & a feeling of emptiness & remorse".

In a long post written partly in capitals the star – who recently revealed she had coronavirus – said she had struggled to shake her "low vibe".

Danniella, 47, also shared a black and white picture of her in bed in the post, which was widely applauded by fans.

The former Sam Mitchell actress, who has long been very honest about her former battles with addiction, wrote: "THIS IS NOT A POOR ME POST OR A SYMPATHY POST…

"JUST A REFLECTION ON MY LIFE POST. I AM MORE THAN FINE ,I AM POSITIVE ,I AM STILL WORKING MY PROGRAM.

"IM JUST VOICING MY INNER THOUGHTS AND FEELINGS AS INSTRUCTED BY MY THERAPIST AND MENTORS, BECAUSE AS WE ALL KNOW, OUR THOUGHTS BECOME OUR FEELINGS WHICH VERY QUICKLY BECOME OUR ACTIONS.

We are all in danger of the cunningness of this disease taking us backwards in a blink of an eye

"BY VOICING THEM TO SOMEONE ELSE IT BREAKS THE PATTERN AND RETRAINS OUR THINKING TO DEAL WITH THINGS A HEALTHIER WAY , WHICH IN THE LONG TERM STOPS US HARBORING WORRY SELF LOATHING,SHAME, ANGER, ANXIETY AND CAN ESCALATE AND TRIGGER ANY UNDERLYING MENTAL HEALTH CONDITIONS OR RELAPSES IN TOXIC BEHAVIOR OR SELF HARM OR ADDICTIONS…"

Danniella added: "So Today I woke up with this ache inside me & a feeling of emptiness & remorse, I tried to ignore it & went about my daily routine of morning meditation,wrote my gratitude list, showered made breakfast & during all this I couldn’t shake this low vibe.

"The more I tried the more intense it became, on reflection I now recognize it was my 3 fold illness manifesting itself in a different form, the spiritual malady part of the illness is a master of illusion, being able to slowly seep into the thoughts you have the feelings you feel and can attack you even on your best & strongest days.

"The twelve step program is more than a step by step guide to the tools we need to apply to life and live by everyday, each step has many layers of depth and learning the more we work them and practice them, we can all live by the program but unless we study the power of our mind & nurture it.

"We are all in danger of the cunningness of this disease taking us backwards in a blink of an eye.

"So today I’m posting this message as my share for anyone who may need to hear it . Thank you to those of you for taking the time to read it and also for allowing me to voice it.

She concluded: "Have a peaceful blessed and lovely day. Love and light to all 🙏🏻. Westie x."

Her many fans congratulated her on her honesty, with one replying: "You will have down days stay strong and remember how far you have come and what you have achieved ❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️."

Danniella rose to fame playing Sam Mitchell, the younger sister of EastEnders bad boys Phil and Grant, in 1990.

But her time on the show was not without drama as Danniella's cocaine use started to affect her work.

She was written out of the popular show in 1996, but later went on to return another two times.

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